Well, what should i say its been a busy holiday, loved it. Haf my birthday and everything which went alright i guess. But somthing has happenedc in between a true love has happened and no its not the boyfriend i always talk about. Well nearlly talk about. But yes my uncle. I have always loved him truly, but unfortunetly nothing will ever happen between us. First of all he's my uncle, secondly he's married and thirdly he has a son. Age for me never bothers me, but also i think your heart never chooses who you love. He knows about it. But still he tends to show that he doesnt feel the same of course for those reasons. I love him with all my heart seriously, i will never forget him ever. I will always love him. He's my only true love lover and will always be. With my boyfriend well, i dont seem to like him anymore but still i go out with him, to not have the same problems like last time. He never comes to my mind, he rearly does, but my uncle he's always in my mind he may go sometimes but he always comes for me to think about him. Also one other think i had my eyebrows done on my birthday, and i simply have had my eyebrows done and i feel good about myself and positive. I told my new friend that i trust about my boyfriend thst i met across the internet, she thinks its wrong because i dont know him. But also i told about my uncle and dhe thinks its still wrong because for varies reasons. But i cant forget him its impossible i love him, and i will do always. He's my only lover, posively i will never stay with him, and which i wont, i will never have no one in my life execpt him. And if he doesnt stay with him, i had a decision made, which by the fact of he doesn't stay with him i prefer to die than suffer from not having him belonging to my life.

Quote: "Love is an extrodenut emotion. It can lead to several actions. Postive and negative. Postive is to love with all your heart and give the person you love what he deserves which is: 'to be happy.' Negative can lead to cheating, disappointment, sadness, but also it leading to death, in many occasions. So stay firm and live wisely with you life because yoi only live once."

Well, what should I say its been a busy week. I was were i was and the school week ended prefectly. But when it comes to friday, i was going on holiday and everthing worked terribly. I lost the train and bus and i had to sleep at the airport for 2 days. To have my flight happening on the actual sunday. But i'm now where i am for my holidays and thats what it matters. Back to see family. Missed carnaval on sunday but i have today to see it. Slept today with cousin. Lets see how days goes. My birthday is coming up soon this week. Sorry for not coming everyday but it has been a busy week. But i will try and come when i can. But next week i will go back to where i was and i will post like always.

Quote: "Not always days go perfect, but you just have to find a way to deal with them. And when it comes to the right time or place that postive and wonderful place will take place."

Today was pretty good day. I went to see my counceller, it was OK i guess. Lots, of positives and a few negatives, but i dealt with it, and i was OK with it. The problem with my brush on my foot, it doesn't hurt, but it has been resolved, the boy didn't say sorry but asked if my foot was better, and i said it was and he was like are you sure (name)? and i said yes, and he said that's good. But he only spoke to me because my head of year told him to do so. Once again at lunch i went to see the girls, it was less awkward than yesterday. But i do believe that eventually, it will become less and less weird. Tomorrow i have the talk with my teacher, and still i have to write the card to give in -to the other girl, and i will do so. Tomorrow, i have PE and i really want to do it, but one or two people think i shouldn't because of my foot. Well, its not that bad its just bruised and it doesn't even hurt no more. And i am being honest here like always. So really i will do it. No one will stop me from doing something i enjoy or love. Not much too say today, but i am making some progress i guess :) and i'm so happy for that.

Today's quote: 'Fight for what makes you happy and not let nothing destroy or come between the progress, to make a change in your life for you to become sad.'

Well, my day was going well yesturday untill an accident haplened. i went meet up with the girls a lunch, i did have some concerns whether i should go or not, i even went to that teacher that helps me alpt and she adviced me to go. So i did, it was very awkard but i managed it. They even wanted me to walk with them, so i did. Yesturday, at the end of the lesson i was standing up whilst, a bout was messing around and landed on my foot. It was very painful. He didnt realise he had done it. I went to the MI room, got some ice. The bruse was getting worser that i had to go to the hospital. My head of year came in, told him what happened, he talk to the boy but nothing. He doesnt remember that he did that. I knew this was going to happen. Because he didnt look back to me and said sorry which meant he didnt realise that he'd done it. Well, today i have to go and see my head of year and see what's going to happen. I thout it that this will get resolved but we shall see. Also i have the talk with my counceller. Last night i got a text, from the a girl, saying that she was worried about me becauae she did not see me in lesson. I was regretting to tell her because of worried that she wouldnt believe me. But in the end i told her. She even told me something that happened during lesson. I feel that now i'm am trully getting close to her. She invited me to go at lunch again. I shall will do. Lets see how the day goes. My brush isnt that bad now, but now i wanna do PE and i cant, because of this stupid bruise and my parents dont want me to do it. And i thout that the school will let me.

Today's song: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=UAWcs5H-qgQ

Yesturday was amazing. I was accpted fine, didn't talk alot alot but i talked applenty, wasn't that shy, well at the start but then shyness was gone. I loved it so much i'm glad i actually went, and didn't regret myself from going. We even took pictures, i looked a bit bad but never mind, all that matters was that i enjoyed it. They even asked several questions to me, one of them was that who do i hang around in school? I didnt wanna tell them, but i had to be honest i said no one. And they said awww, you can come to ..... room at lunch and you can sit next to us, i told her some few issues, but she had answers for them. They were great people and they are, they even felt sorry for me walking on my own home, and i had a ride on one of the girl's car to take me back. They even walked with me to the place. They're really nice. I feel so happy and positive about myself. Today i brought the card of thank you for the girl. Tomorrow's another day and let's see how it goes hehe i'm so happy :D

Today i talked to my bby this morning, but since then no sign of him. I miss him so much :( <3 However, today whilst i was in down i was near the valentine's day gifts to offer, and i thought what can i offer him. But i still don't know :/ maybe something will come to me.

Quote: ''Everything, is possible, a smile is the begining of a start of acheiveing but in the in the end words and confidence is everthing that makes a person suceed."

My day couldn't have been even perfect. I had a super day. Had the talk with the teacher at lunch, told her all the good things including the girls invite to town. She reconds i should go, my inside thinks i should so i am going now. But i'm concerned, but lets see how it goes. About the card i am indeed right a card to this girl, but for my other special friend my teacher liked what i was going to say to her and everything. She would try and speak to her day and tell me her response. And she did, i then went to see my teachet for the response and it was so positive that it had made my day. I was so happy to hear what i was hearing. In the end i saw her with my card and she said thanks for the card (name) i really appriciated it. i smiled to her. But when i came home and had time to go on social media i replied to her relating to the card and her comments were once again positive. I now think to myself, do people really like me? :/ maybe they do and i never  had noticed that. But know lets focus on tomorrow's day and new acheivements to be made. To speak up whilst i am with them. Hope i'm able too :/

Today's post, puts me thinking to leave you with this song: http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=xknW3A5LhZ0

Yesturday was an alright day :) bby in mind once again he's my everything. I love you boyfriend. Counceller's talk was good to, had some few discusions about what things oi could do and everything. However, at the end of the day when i finished playing baskquetball which i enjoy alot, i got invited to go to town with this girl and her friends. I had concerns about, but i told i would tell after and stuff. Last night i got a msg from her telling about it and that she wasn't joking when she asked me. I talked her about her and said that i would give her a reply tonight :) i don't know if i shouls go, but my concience my inside says i should. I have the talk with my teacher, today i think i'm going to tell her that i want to give this girl a card too, because she has been with me to when i most need it like the other lovely girl, and i will tell her about this conversation and see what see says about it.

Today's quote leaves to me saying: " That when you realise you see things that you never thought that would happen. But one step at a time and you will reach your target to the next level of achievement."

Yesturday went normal. My bby in mind through out tgmhe day. And its been cold lately, and all i think is i wish he was here with me to warm me up. I've also been have dreamy thoughts, like everytime i pass a car, that's switched on, but its parked and somebody's inside, i always think its him, but when i pass it abd come to realise its not :/ however i wrote the card to my dear lovely friend, gave it to the teacher, i was ment to talk to her but she was in a meeting, so now i'm going to see her on Friday at lunch. She gave me a hug, and i loved it i love hugs hehe. Yesturday i made another progress i've been sitting at least 2 times this week in science next to my friend, because i asked and her and her other friend have accepted me :) but the problem is, is that i dont talk after, i just dont know what to say and also i'm worried about their reaction too. Today i have the talk with my counceller at school, lets see how it goes. If you mantain to contact and speak to me about anything such as your feedback, here is my email: secretanonymou421@gmail.com 

Today i will leave with lyrics from a beautiful song: "I'm gonna pick up the pieces, and build a lego house. If things go wrong we can knock it down. My three words have two meanings, there's one thing on my mind, it's all for you <3 "

I had an ok day. Thinking about my boy all day along, but also had the appointment. I was ok i guess, but she has made an appointment to speak with my mum this time and if she doesn't comd she will tell the service that she asked for information to come to my housr. So i dont want that i told my mum and i havent told her what it about i told that the doctor will tell her instead. She thinks i've done something wrong. But really i haven't she just wants to alert her and keep me safe. Because of whats happened in the past. She wont tell my mum because i dont want her to, so she wont break my confience. However she does need to act and keep me safe on what it relates too. Hope it goes well the appointment :/ worried about when the appointment end that my mum will question me why i been talking about this at the doctors and all that. But i wont tell her the secret. But i will tell her a bit of the truth.

Today's post, will link to a song which is:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=W3vijeR0ZRs

Good morning, yestuday went alright. I talked with my baby (boyfriend), which was the so sweet and lovely to talk to him. I love him so much, he's made me feel so speacil and a bit more confience, and since we've been going out i have been more happier and all that :D The teacher, i think i've forgotten him already i just like him as a teacher and i dont look at his room or his car in the morning or afternoon now, and now i dont even care if i see him. Because my baby is by hunni and i'm happy too be with him. He's my only one. :) Today i have the talk with the doctors lets see how it goes. I think i will just lie, or maybe i womt have too. I'll see. Yesturday, hum... no prgress made, lets see today. I have extended a little bit of a conversation yesturday with these girls in my year. Because at lunch they came to sit next to me and started talking about the prom in front of random year 10 it was so akward...

Today quote: " Every single person was born for a reason. Every single person has somebody special in their hearts both family, friends or even boyfriend/girlfriend. Every single person will fight for their dreams and wishes to become true. Every single person will live a true love story with their partner..."

Yesturday, nothing much happened untill it got till night. Had a conversation woth cousin, her boyfriend and my friend. It got to apoint where we were all talking and then suddenly he owns up and admits his feelings (my friend, who was my ex boyfriend). He admitted that he still loved me and all that. And all this time he'd been lieing by saying that he only saw me as a friend because thats how i saw him. My cousin and her boyfriend were convienced that i still felt something for him by the way i walking with him as sweet and kind and all that. In the end, he asked me out and i accepted it. I am still worried of what happened in the past might happen once again and that me and him suffer but more intirely him. Because i have made him suffer in the past for personal reasons. I was so happy and smily when he said those lovely things to me. Today i feel so happy, cheerful and when i don't speak to him i miss him loads. I seems like an entire time. When he pops up i smile straight away. I'm so happy to be with him, but in the same worried and scared. I'm just going to take things calmly this time and see how it goes. For the moment i wont tell my parents i want to keep it secretive. Tuesday i have the appoinment, lets see how it goes. Hope the way i want it to go like. Tomorrow is another day and lets see how it goes.

Inspired song for today is: http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CAjKZJarlwk