Yesterday, 20th of July i was with my boyfriend, and it was an incredible but a very incredible day. Lot of fun was on, throwing water, massages on back was given. More intense kisses and touches were given. until i managed to take his t-shirt off him. and allowing him to touch me calmly and not brutally, and disrespecting my decision to go fast and going further in steps, that i didn't want to. He respects me, and day by day i believe that he will be the man of my life. I love him so strongly, that i can't imagine my life with out him. The whole evening was spent with him, from 3/4 pm until 6 pm. Because he had to go with his friend home at that time. I went to the river, had a swim with cousin and a few of her friends. This week that passed by i met new people and made new friends, and was the day on Monday to spend time with boyfriend, but of course the weekend and the Monday the days to spend more time with cousin the side of my dad's family that i'm not that close, i loved it and i would like to repeat it. I also went out at night with them, at a party, and went on the rides. But during that weekend, and on-wards, I've been receiving threats from a telephone number that i don't know who it is, saying that my dad will know everything, but i don't know what the number is on about. And i'm worried it relates to my past, to my big secret, my big fear. But my boyfriend believes it's not, its something to do with me and him, because he did, also say that my dad will know what i'm doing here (the place i am to spend holidays, because i came earlier). So he believes its something to do with me and him. And i'm more decisive to really tell him and me and him go out, that we are boyfriend and girlfriend. But my fear is that if he doesn't accept it, and goes for me not seeing him or even speaking to him again. My mother will definitely accept it, i believe it that but father is harder, because he creates films in his mind that: i'm to young to have a boyfriend, what if he will make you suffer, those kind of things. But he will never do that, i'm super happy with him, and day by day i believe and trust in him, and know that he will always be there, when i most need help. Every time i'm feeling low, he can always cheer me up, and make my smile grow and make it last long enough.

Today it's a special day for me and my boy, because today it's 2 months that i met him across the internet. But also it's getting closer to day 7 which it's a special day, because it will make 1 month since all this relationship all started. Day 5th of July, i still remember was the day i first met him personally, and on the 5th of august will be a 1 month since that day occurred. I'm super happy, and i couldn't be more happier than ever.