My friend suggests that i have Anorexia :/ i didnt think i had until i discovered... i started researching and researching about more about anorexia (the symptoms, reasons to have anoxeria, etc) And i found out that a few of the symptoms related to some of my. Thats when i started to think that maybe i do have anorexia, however i did found out that people that dont get trated with it may be caused to have serious problems like heart problems or other type of problems which can may lead to die. This made me think i dont wanna die, but if i do maybe i deserve it. I told my friend my weight before and now and her reaction was shocking to it. I feels i dont deserve none of this and that im pretty and everything but i don feel that way... however one step at a time lets see how my tests go, hope they are perfect and show that everything is fine with me. I wanna thank you my dear sister (my friend) for helping and supporting me when i needed, i love you, you know what you mean to me, without you i wouldnt be the same, thanks for everything and sorry about bothering you woth my unimportant things. I love you and i will always be here for you no matter what time or what day, whenever you need me i will always be available for you <3

I've been telling my friend that i've ment along time ago from social medias about this blog. She's been reading it everyday, however she read my recent post on my weight and exams... and she agrees with my parents to do exams to see if everything is ok. At the begining i didnt again with her like i did with my parents but now... i think its the best and right thing to do. On monday i will make the appointment at the doctors to do the tests, i hope everything is ok im so worried about the results :(