Once again, he came in mind... but today i talked to childline. I feel that i only have childline. Childline is the one thats always there for me. And understand me. Of course i have my dear friend that i met from the internet. And i thank her for everything she's done for me. Even childline agreed with me too right a book like my lovely friend from the internet did have that in mind. Maybe i will... but i need to find how it works. How will i publish it? Everything. Not only i want to do this for me, and let people know what i suffered. But also i want to help those who have or are suffering like the same or simular things that i've suffered. Maybe i will with the age i ahve now or maybe later in time when i feel good and feel better about myself and made those problems go away to not interfer in my life.

Quote: "Let the sunshine in your life, and bring you go things, try not to let that darkness in, though it might destroy everything including your happiness."

Yesturday i looked myself in thr mirror and said to my self i'm pretty. And i managed to accept it dont know why but i did. However i said this with clothes on, but the hard part is yet to come without clothes on, because of what happened to me in school and the other serious problem that i yet haven't revealed. But i do believe that i will get there. If i was able to do this, then i will one day progess and succeed to believe that i am pretty. But not at the moment i dont feel yet perfect to say and believe that. 

This links me to say: "That little by little i will reach the target, and progress to suceed in life."