Today was super good. I went to school with confidence enough to think i'm going to have a good day. And i did indeed, there was a trip going i was going on it but then i gave up, because i didnt need it because it involved to look around college and see what to choose to study next year. But i know already. Even if i didnt i'm glad i didnt go, because guess who was on it... Yes he was so which ment i didnt have to see him during the day, yeah i did see him but when he was gone i didnt have too... However as i was going to science i made a progess, got the laptop to do research, and the girl i like or in case i love alot to talk to was there, and i was waiting for the right time to ask. Eventually i did and went to ask if i could sit next to her and she said yeah of course you can (name). I smiled and she did too, i was so happy to be accepted but also a progess made. Didn't talk as usual but i was brave to ask for the first time during lesson time. Another progess that i shouls make is to start talking whilst i'm sitting next to them, i do a few times but often when they talk to me, maybe i should develop and start more conversations and talk more when i'm sitting with people. Did say a
hello and reponded to people that talked to me today, but no expanding conversation made.
However, when it was lunch, i went to get something to eat i sat down, and meanwhile guess who appeared? The two girls i sat next to in lesson with their other friend that i talked once or twice during form time. They sat on my table and said hello all of them, and i said hello back. But then again no conversations made. I need to progess more. And i do believe that i will. after i left, didnt say anything, i feel bad to have not done.
But then i went to find that teacher that set me the targets but she wasn't in, i will have to see her tomorrow. During PE which was the last lesson, i got entered to join the same girl's group as i did on monday. I accepeted, and we won all the games. But hat dont matter to me, the importance is that they allowed me in and not excluding me out...
However, after i got changed that girl who invited me to the team, talked to me to see if i was ok and all that untill it got to the conversation about prom.... but then the bell went and it was time to go.
I still feel that i shouldn't go, because of many reasons. One of them being left out. Not having people to talk to. Not being invited - yes i was invited by these 2 girls but i'm worried that they may forget when it gets to the time. I feel unwanted to the prom. Worriness by people making fun of me in varies ways espeacilly for what i might wear. Another reason to the journey back home, and having no one to take me, parents dont have car so i would have to take a taxi. But i dont really like that idea especially because the prom ends at 23:30, and i hate the car and having to be on my own in a taxi. But let's see how it goes i will talk to my teacher i would love to her opinion to the situation and how i think of it but also the progess being made too.
Today's quote: "Let there light in life, and never let darkness in, for it will cover all the postive and bring negative."
