Not much happening today. No suicidal thoughts, but do plan to do it not maybe now by later in life if anything gets worse. I sae him and i did and as usually. Check if his car was there before and after school. This is getting really obsitive i need to stop and forget him. He has someone on his life and im suffering enough to know that from yesturday. I must not suffer no more or should i? I feel hate, and upset from outside but inside its the complete opposite. I love him and im happy for him to exist in my life but really he doesnt. And this is another battle to fight throught and try and win in the end... 

Today's quote is: "Smile always and be sad less. One day a smile will grow and you will see the good in life. Instead of the bad. Smile and live freely forever and one step at a time to build that real you."