Today, i saw him once more, but no reaction i looked away everythime i saw time it was diffcult but i managed it until.. he entered the room and walked passed i looked at him, with thoughs emotions in my mind that i feel for him... however i did talk to childline today and i find it useful but still you feel the same way. Also i have my counseller to see tomorrow in school, i want to reveal my secret but i feel that nervous, guilty, worriness, etc, coming back. I need to find the courage and tell her this ain't good for me. I have been having thoughs thoughts in mind, you know ending life thoughts, but i havent made any plans for them yet. If i could find of way of not getting found out, of me planning it then i would maybe one day. Maybe that day is yet to come, i dont see the point in life really i dont even care if i get killed, or punched or bullyed whatever, if i do then i do deserve it since i have suffered in the past and am during my present but will deffenitly suffer more in the future.

Quote: "If you feel like your in a bad mood today, don't let that affect you think of the good things that you've lived during your life, the moments, the memories, think of those who adore you - friends and family, they are one of the reasons which deserve you and make you be the real and special person."