I said i can wait if you want since your speaking to somebody :/ and he said no no i have to go into town so i have exactly 5 minutes for you to speak to me - and he asked me, so (name) what has brought you here? And i told him i've got good news and he said good news? What are they? And i told him about the blog being creatdd and he said straight away is a live blog or what? And i replyed its a google blogger, and he said oh google blogger yeah. But also i referenced both to my teafher and my head of year that i maintain anonymous and they both understood why. With this i manged to include sir i also wanted to annouce that i've brought you and my teacher a present and he said you dodnt have to, the card was enough and by the way it was lovely i like it thank you and said yeah but i wanted to by you 2 a present still, for all the help and support you've been giving me... but then it got to a stage that we were aranging when it would be ideal to give the gift and he said tomorrow break in your teacher's room and i said ok to it but he also included to remember him if i see him and i said ok sir i will and eventually i went and he was coming behind him, i stayed there talking to students whilst i left to go to form time, i felt so happy about it from being brave to manage to do it. Its done yay, i did it now lets see how it goes tomorrow :) 

I had noticed the door move and... he came out and i said straight away hello sir, may i speak to you about something? And he said have you been waiting out here this whole time? If I knew you were here i would of came out and spoke to you... but then told me to go in a different room to briefly speak to him but then he saw one of the teachers that had spoken to me and talked to her so i waited a student came a long but he wanted to see that teacher but when it was all done, i got to a stage where it was time to speak to him, and...

I realised that he was speaking to somebody, i did decide to knock how ever he carried on talking but then i heard a silence and he said 'hello' ... 'hello' (as to see who was knocking) but i wasn't brave enough to go inside... however they started with the conversation again. And with a result of this, i descided to no go in but to wait until they finished, yes i know i'm so stupid to have acted that way, but thats the way i felt and the need of reacted. I waited and waited i saw 2 teachers and a few pupils they spoke to me and i replyed back but when they went i carried on waiting, i did have that feeling to have given up and go away but i didnt dont know why but something made me stay... Eventually i got to the right time...

... It wads lunchtime i had my hot dinners, and then i went to find my teacher and with me in had the presents in my bag, but she told me she couldnt do it today maybe tomorrow because she had alot of work to mark and she has 2 lessons after that... so then i asked her if she knew where he was and she told me to have a look for him so i did and thanked her. I decided to go up to him office, but in his class room were the usual people from my year, they did the same thing usually but i did respond to them. However i then decided to go pass through the door, and head off to his dor when i reached his office i spotted something...

I managed to tell her that i'd brought a present for her and my head of year, she gave her opinion can't remember briefly what it was like but i know it was positive, however she told me to see if i could come back at lunch and if i do see him to tell him to come back i said ok i will but i dought i will see him... otherwise i will go up to his office and see him and she said or maybe its best to do it tomorrow before we break up maybe breaktime, but see how it goes in finding him... futhermore time and time passed until...

... i had the courage to be able to ask them, i feirst went to find my teacher and i found her but i waited until she had finished talking to someone, when it was my turn to go i went in her room and she thank me for the card its was lovely, and i announced to her some good news, and she gave me a hug, inside i felt that i needed that but then i told her that i decided to crate a blog and share my daily life just like a diary, and with this i told a friend of mine that i've met more than a year on social network, we havent met yet but i've spoken to her on the phone, she's very important to me, i told her that i told my friend that i created a blog and my friend read it and she had positive opinion on it, saying that i don't deserve to suffer (in my opinion i do) however she felt happy about  and we talked about 1-2 more things that related to the blog but then it got to a point when i managed to do it...

Finished school, now i'm at home and guess what i did it was had the courage to do it...