Tuesday 7 July 2015

Meeting up with him, and something new happening...

Got up in the morning, ready: break-first, clothes chosen to wear, hair down, make- up, everything I complete. As time was getting closer I was becoming more excited, and more anxious to be with him. When it comes to the time, I left the house, when it comes to turn the corner of the street, i breath slowly, and calm myself down, as I walk I notice somebody waiting on the other side of the street, and realize it was him. I cross the road, kiss him on the cheek and him giving the same thing to me, the kiss on my cheek. We walked and talked and i felt more comfortable in being alone to him. As we reach down the destination near the river, instead crossing the bridge where many people pass i decided to stay on the side where hardly anyone walks pass, because then i can feel more comfortable to be with him. As we walk, we side to stop, and i asked him where do you want to go, and he replied next to a tree, and i answered which one, and he said which one it was, so i walked forwardly and looked around as he followed me. He grabbed my hands, touched my arms, leading to hugs, kissing on cheeks and little bits he gave me, but nothing came from me just hugs. As his lips slides down from forehead, to nose, to cheeks going down to lips. I breath slowly and calmly. He kisses me on the lips, and i shake inside, i breath slowly and say to myself, let it happen calmly, (my name), don't turn away, and he carries on kissing, until suddenly i begin to accept and kiss him back. As progressing it leads to kiss with tongue. We hugged, kissed, and kissed, for a while, until we decide to find a different place where there would be shade and somewhere to sit. As we were walking we were holding hands.

As we find a place, we talk, more kisses happen, i feel even more comfortable permitting in action what was happening. He sat on the rock, i sat on his lap, back to kisses, hugs, kisses in many places neck, nose, arm, etc. but not lower than that. Meanwhile we got up kissed against the tree, i lifted my leg up and he picked me up, I was scared to fall, but he told me to trust in him, And i did. More passionate kisses were involved. Furthermore, we walked and he was behind me with his arms around me and him kissing on my shoulder. We went near the sunshine, more kisses were involved. Yes we did talked.

After a while. we went down to another tree,  but him sitting down and me standing up, more intense kisses occurred, talking more involved, he even wanted me to sing, but i wasn't ready, because i never sang in personally to anyone, and i was timid to do so. But he did sing to me, haha so cute in what he sang. More kisses meanwhile were involved stood up, next to a tree, leg was involved, him touching my bottom :P and me pushing him more against me even harder. As it was getting more passionate, he was putting his hands on my shirt and going up, but i stopped the kissing, and breathed slowly, whilst this made me recognized my biggest fear, in my biggest secret that i haven't yet revealed. But he asked what was wrong, it was hard to tell him, but he told me to feel comfortable with him in confessing and i told him that i didn't like what he did with the shirt, and he said sorry to me, And i said, it's OK. I forgive you. Talking and kisses were more involved. Until i asked what he wanted from me from here on wards, in future. And he said can i be honest with you? And i replied yes, you may. And he asked me: Do you want to make out with me (be my girlfriend)? I didn't want to say no, i said yes but i'm fearful of my parents and making you suffer in future. He asked again meanwhile, and i said yes. So now we are Girlfriend and Boyfriend -> i'm super happy :D

After a while we walked the bridge, with hands held together. In the middle of the bridge, he grabbed me up and carried me to the other side of the bridge. He then put me on the floor, hands held together once again, and we sat on different rocks, i sat down on his lap. Massages on my back and kisses were involved, tickles under my arm and feet were involved, more intense kisses were involved. He took my shoes haha, i stood up on the rocks with no shoes, and he grabbed me and played me around spinning me around. Many things happened, and as going back, he put my trainers back on, and asked me do you want to sit up here on my shoulders? I said you can't i weigh to much, and he replied do you want to risk it, i said yes, alright i will take that risk :) So i went, and i was scared to fall, until he crazily decides to take me to a tree, and i said no no no, and he said now try and beg down, and i said i can't. So he then decides to go to the other side, and i manage to beg my head down.

Soonly on his mind, decides to cross the river, i said no no no, i'm going to fall. And he said no you won't, but if you do i will save you. I said OK haha, and then he made laugh with a joke. Until I reach the other side of the bridge, and there's a small circled post made from wood. And tell's me to stand on it i couldn't fit my both my feet, worried to fall but i managed to take the risk :) And guess what happened. I fell back and he catched me hehe :) Kisses involved. As i walk forward, hands held to him, he said that i had a beautiful hair, i didn't understand why. So he told me to stay still, he took a photo, and i saw what was wrong and i had stuff from the trees, not leaves but other stuff, don't know the name for it. But then i took it way.

More hugs, kisses and talking involved whilst we walk. Until a message from my cousin is received to go home to have lunch. And i told her that i was on my way. My boyfriend wouldn't let me go, haha :) i had lied to my grandma that i was going to walk on my own yes that's true but i didn't tell her the fact that i was gonna meet up, especially with a boy. But eventually whilst we were walking, it was getting ready to the destination to separate us apart. Kisses were given, hugs again, conversations made. Wishing to not go away, but i had to. Last touches, on hands, crossing the roads and me and him turning in different directions.

Relationship is gonna maintain secret, until it's the right time for me and him to confess it. Only us and my cousin who i trust and his friend that's also my other cousin who he trusts, knows this secret. But my fear, is my parents finding out, in me telling them or from a different way, and making them decide to separate us apart :( Since i'm 16 and he is 18 and you know what it means, i'm under age and he's over age. But i love him <3 That's what truly matters. Know waiting for another meeting up, maybe tomorrow will happen. But may i need to tell the truth to my grandma and tell her to keep it secret or may i keep on inventing stories, for sooner or later her to discover and tell my parents...