I hate life, seriously today another bad day. I went to talk with my teacher like she said to last week. And guess what it destroyed my day. She was very harsh, asking if i made progress in doing something in makong friends, keeping the past in the past and i said no. And she said that she wont help me because then we aint moving and u are just making no progess and thats wasting my time. That hurt alot. Well if she dosent want to help then why be that person to lissten to problems and help people... we talked and in end she said to start of by saying hello she said its easy but it isnt. She wont understand how i feel. Because she hasnt gone through what i have. :'( seriously it made me cry i cryed and cryed. These people asked me if i was ok i said yeah i am i dont wanna talk about etc. She told me to come next wednesday but i'm not going because i dont want anymore judging me for not progessing. Yeah i know im not perfect... A day to forget really... 

I feel more ceratin that everyone's against me the entire world is. I feel that im more certain to commit suicide because i do deserve it. I'm fed up people ignoring me, talkong that way and these problems interfereing, so i feel if i die then i will die in peace... he wont talk to me (<3) oh well then that gives me another reason to do it. Also i checked his facebook and i saw a photo with a other girl and a person commented 'must be getting serious' which reveals that their making progess. It hurt to it which means i have even lesser chance ti be with him. How am i go to school now and look at him? Seriously i just wanna die, even my tears are starting to come, sooner or later i will cry.

As you may see i'm not very inspirational today maybe tomorrow, i will leave you another song.

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5anLPw0Efmo